suddenly i realised I MISS THE PAST!!
short entry cause going to eat dinner. LOL. =)
woke up at 9.30 cos im going to have tuition later. another 1 and a half hour of amaths. speaking of amaths, i realised that i still haven completed the set of ws which mr peacock gave us. uh-oh. nvm. shall try to do them later. hee =) tmr is 27th june. nothing special except that sch reopens tmr. -_- this june hol seemed to have passed so guickly that i did not manage to do the things i wanted to do. ahhhh.
went plaza sing with my cousin ytd. had loads of fun shopping for gifts . lalala. fun fun. then we each bought clothes. yay !! shopping is so fun but i doubt that i can still go shopping once sch starts again. hehe..nvm, i can shop in my dreams too =pi cant believe that i haven watched initial D. heh. one more week and i'll get to watch it . yay =)
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MICHELLE !!
nothing has changed. im still the same. MUAHAHA. u are not going to change anything in my life.
ps. try winking and smiling at the same time. u'll look so stupid. =p ( me and my test ) =)
all i want to do is to blog now. yes, finally i feel like blogging a decent entry. im feeling very weird nowadays. sleepless nights and weird dreams. waking up in the middle of the night and taking a long time to fall asleep after that. ugh. i really hate this kind of "me". sometimes, it is that kind of unexplainable and undescribable feeling that makes one feel so down. for me, i dun even know whats the reason that is bringing my whole hol mood down. i felt like crying and it has been so long since i last cried. it's not to seek attention or whatever but to let myself feel better. even though i may have lost something, at least, i had not lost the ability to cry. i want to cry!! i want to see tears !! i want to go back to the old me.
some things should be just left unsaid. if u ask me, yes. that's the definition of pain.
I WANT TO CRY.
I FINISHED MY COMPO!! finally. can go to sleep now. good nites to all =)
feeling very full and bloated now. hah. shouldn't have eaten so much for lunch. went to cwp with mummy yesterday and yeap, WE bought lots of stuffs. hee. must emphasize on the WE cos it' not only me who bought sth, she did also!! and in fact, she bought more stuffs than me. LOL. i saw a really nice pencilbox!! rainbow-colored!! but i had to resist the temptation, cos i just had a new one not long ago. yar, and i did not buy it in the end. saw people whom i know yesterday but was too lazy to go up and say hello. hee. spent 10 bucks plus plus on lunch cos i decided to treat my mummy. muahaha. im nice :) then reached home at ard 6 plus. my foot hurts alot from all the walking. boo.
for today. just had my tuition and for the first time, i realised kinematics is not that difficult. ugh, but i dun like this. ominous sign. cos whenever i have this kind of "oh, it isn't that hard after all" feeling, my results will prove otherwise. haha. nvm about this. had a real serious talk with my parents ytd night. yup, we talked about alot of things and i only went to sleep at about 2am. the talk made me realise some things. i have grown up!!! haha. thats a fact but well, this fact somehow started to have its effect on me only ytd. -_- night talks are useful for me. hohoho. at least i did not fall asleep. =)
i will study HARD and not let them down. HAHAHAHAH.
YAY =)
hohoho. i did the tests and im 70% normal !! my friends see me as slow and STEADY. must be very true. LOL. im going out with my mummi later, so cannot join they all to do hwrk. ok, i shall abandon hw for today and enjoy myself. hee. =p
im not sad, it's just that i feel WEIRD.
DISASTER = NO KAYAKING FOR ME =(
hmms. surprise suprise!! i actually dont feel sleepy right now. =) YAY. oh yar, i mentioned in my previous previous entry that i was disappointed about the farewell party thingy, but it was still on yesterday. : )) and trust me, it was a great one too. LOL.
starting from yesterday's afternoon, we went off to ang mo kio in my cousin's car cos they wanted to go and buy some games. okk, so me. lijun. marilyn. andrew and guozhong reached there at about 2 plus, which was actually still quite early. WE ATE CHOCOLATE WAFFLE. yummy =p. it's nice, and we even smuggled into the ulu cinema to eat. but the worst thing is that the chocolate kept melting and dripping. eww-_-. hee, and we even went in 15 mins late cause we thought of watching the movie at the last minute to kill time. anyway, we watched MR AND MRS SMITH. hoho. very very nice. but the ending is like abit____ . weird. after that, we went off to JE to meet jm. michelle and her bf. yupx, and the IMM carpark is like so full that we took so long to find a parking lot. but jm was still late anyway. haha. oh yar!! i want to watch INITIAL D. yay =) june 23, im looking forward to that. wheee !! back to the main point, had our dinner at THE CRUNCHY CARROT. lol. nice name. we ordered some seafood pasta and overall, it was okay, not that nice as we had expected. eh, then we took so long to decide among ourselves who are the lucky fours to be able to travel in gz's car to chevrons. lol. we resorted to so many stupid ways like scissors paper stones, open numbers blahblah. that was so funny and we couldn't help laughing and all the people were like staing at us. okay, sorry. =) finally, we decided to let michelle and her bf walk there themselves and we should not play gooesberry. then we reached chevrons and we played pool. hohoho. that pole/stick/rod thingy is so long and im only taller than it by a a few cms only. so sad. haha. nvm. i scored and managed to hit one ball into that hole !!!! wheeeee... we took silly pics of ourselves acting pro when playing pool. haha. and u know what, we only completed one game when the guys have already completed 3 or 4 games. hee. it's understandable, we are just BEGINNERS. yup, that's for pool. then we went bowling and u know what, I GOT 2 STRIKES !!!! YAYAYAYAY!!! it was the first time in my life that i actually got a strike. hahahahaha. and for the first time, i got 91 points. im so happy. lol. i managed to get free supper cos we had divided into 2 teams, and the team which lost had to chip in money for supper. hehehe. we played around 2 games and left for supper, cos it was already 12 plus and michelle cant reach home too late. ok, then we went to some nearby coffeshop and had supper. we ate horfun, fried rice and noodles. NICE. i lurve the horfun and noodles especially. hee. yup. so we went home after that. so me. andrew. marilyn and lijun took a cab home cos gz drove jm. michelle and eric home. i want to complain about that taxi driver. eeyer, i was so worried about if we could reach home safe and sound cos he was like pratically speeding all the way and at one point, he braked so suddenly that we almost flew out of the seats. ok, this is an exaggeration but true. marilyn and lijun then came down and stayed overnight. hurhur. we did so many stupid stuffs like gossiping about people. yar, i know it's bad but at least it provides entertainment. =P i realised that the world is really soooo small cos some of our friends actually know one another in one way or another. yup. then we crapped for a super long time and we even prank called people late in the night. it's not very late, haha, the last call we made was around 4 plus. hmmms, at last, we fell asleep at 5 plus and slept all the way to 12 today. haha. what a great day =)))))
maybe u all will not know who im talking about in this entry, but still i want to say. I LURVE MY COUSINS. =)
THE TIME NOW IS 3.17AM. lOLX. AND IM STILL AWAKE. =p ME AND MY COUSINS ARE JUST STUCK IN MY ROOM DOING NOTHING BUT SOME CRAZY STUFFS. =) SHALL UPDATE AGAIN TOMORROW.
just had my amaths tuition. she's a nice teacher : )) hee, shall get A1 for amaths in o'levels and do her proud. LOLx, it seems impossible.. but no harm dreaming about that =p
ok. i think the trip tomorrow is cancelled. something just cropped up yesterday, leaving us with NO choice but to cancel everything. the farewell party, i suppose, is off. =X i mean, it's logical to cancel it, cause it will be inappropriate to to carry on when 3 people are already unable to attend. i can't see the point of carrying on. hmm, although im disappointed, but it just happened and all i want to say is that, THE UNEXPECTED ALWAYS HAPPEN. hee, so the same goes for my results. lol. im not bhb, but there's really a possibility. haha. must have confidence in ourselves. YAY : )) back to the party, yup, the chances of carrying on is very very slim and i suppose if we really stick to our plan tomorrow, the mood will also be quite weird. that incident made me realise how fragile lives can be. =X i want to treasure my life and die without any regrets. that day me and shu were like discussing if it is the end of world tomorrow, what are the things that we will do. she said that she will want to die on that day, earlier than the others so that there will still be someone to burn her incense money and blahblah. haha. what a great idea, but before i do that, i want to spend all my money on eating and doing all the things which i had wanted but lack the courage to do so. i want to hug and kiss those i love and tell them I LOVE YOU. hee. then tell those who piss me off or disgust me I HATE YOU straight in the face. nobody will care anyway, we will all die. hohohoho. i think too much. =)
hmmms, my parents are leaving for KL tomorrow, meaning that i will be HOME ALONE. YAY!! hee..thats the first time i will be alone at home. how fun. =) hehe, maybe to others, there's nothing to be happy about being left alone at home, but it is going to be the first time. i dunno how to describe, but still, HOME alone. going kayaking next week. whee!!
thought of the day: some things are simply just beyond our control. we should just learn to accept the way things are and face it with a beautiful smile. like this =))
ok. i'll accept the way thing are right now.
just had my amaths tuition. she's a nice teacher : )) hee, shall get A1 for amaths in o'levels and do her proud. LOLx, it seems impossible.. but no harm dreaming about that =p
ok. i think the trip tomorrow is cancelled. something just cropped up yesterday, leaving us with NO choice but to cancel everything. the farewell party, i suppose, is off. =X i mean, it's logical to cancel it, cause it will be inappropriate to to carry on when 3 people are already unabale to attend. i can't see the point of carrying on. hmm, although im disappointed, but it just happened and all i want to say is that, THE UNEXPECTED ALWAYS HAPPEN. hee, so the same goes for my results. lol. im not bhb, but there's really a possibility. haha. must have confidence in ourselves. YAY : )) back to the party, yup, the chances of carrying on is very very slim and i suppose if we really stick to our plan tomorrow, the mood will also be quite weird. that incident made me realise how fragile lives can be. =X i want to treasure my life and die without any regrets. that day me and shu were like discussing if it is the end of world tomorrow, what are the things that we will do. she said that she will want to die on that day, earlier than the others so that there will still be someone to burn her incense money and blahblah. haha. what a great idea, but before i do that, i want to spend all my money on eating and doing all the things which i had wanted but lack the courage to do so. i want to hug and kiss those i love and tell them I LOVE YOU. hee. then tell those who piss me off or disgust me I HATE YOU straight in the face. nobody will care anyway, we will all die. hohohoho. i think too much. =)
hmmms, my parents are leaving for KL tomorrow, meaning that i will be HOME ALONE. YAY!! hee..thats the first time i will be alone at home. how fun. =) hehe, maybe to others, there's nothing to be happy about being left alone at home, but it is going to be the first time. i dunno how to describe, but still, HOME ALONE. going kayaking next week. whee!!
thought of the day: things just seem to be beyond our control sometimes. we should just learn to accept it and face it with a beautiful smile. like this =))
ok. i'll learn to accept the way things are now.
it is now 10.25 am according to the time in my computer. lets see how long i will take to finish this entry =) it's the second wek of the hols and 1 whole week has just passed like this !! i dun even think that i have something to be proud of..my hw is still being left on the table, untouched. i have decided to give myself 2 weeks to complete the hw and for now, i shall revise. yes, REVISE. going kayaking next week. YAY =) hope that my sea-sickness will not act up on that day. actually it was supposed to be today, but they postponed it. our plans for my cousin's farewell party is out. hee. finally, im going CYCLING =PpP must pray hard that it will not rain on that day. just finished reading xiang's entry and i realised that we share the same feelings and are stuck in the same stupid situation.
maybe i should not say that my parents do not understand me, cause i dun even understand myself sometimes. yar, i know that they nag at me for my own good, but they should at least spare a thought for my feelings. do they know the pressure we students are facing and at the same time, we have to listen to their nagging and the worst thing is that THEY REPEAT THE SAME THING THEY SAID OVER AND OVER AGAIN. they expect me to stay at home throughout the whole june hols to study. i dun deny that i did promised them before the hols that i will study, but i really cant stand staying at home and not going out for the whole 4 weeks. =X and now, i have to ask my mummy for permission before i can even use the computer. this is not like last time anymore. i was able to use the computer anytime i want and or as long as i wanted without asking. what had caused all these changes to take place? i dun understand. problems are starting to flow in and i dun want to face it alone. the pressure from o'levels is enough to drive me crazy, and now, i cant help but feel restricted, a kind of feeling which i have never experienced before.
things need to change before i change.
it's now 10.41.
YAY !! i finished the book on " Sulliavan's Island " =)) very very nice book. hee.
it taught me lots of stuffs and made me realise alot of things too.
philosophical : )) hah. thats what im looking for.
im so proud that i still completed the book at the expense of my health.
lol. cough plus fever is nothing !!
word of the day: true-magic.
WENXIANG JOCELYN JOYCE and ME went shopping ytd =)
here are some of the crazy things we did:
-initial plan was to accompany joyce to HQ to buy the formation signs, but upon reaching there, we realised that it was lunch time. =X
-decided to walk all the way to bugis but halfway, we found the sun too scorching and the weather too hot, and the best way was to take a bus.
-hehe. so we sat at the bus stop and crapped abt alot of stuffs and jocelyn asked some meaningful qns.
-ordered 12 ichigo bliss in mos burger and ate until our mouth went numb, but they were nice.
-tried on some sunglasses along bugis street and were scolded by the kuku aunty. i wished i had sth like" hello? we are here to shop, not to be scolded by u". but i din, haha..cos im nice : ))
-joce and joyce were the first 2 to try on clothes in the shops and mi and xiang were standing ard to give them comments. hee.
-joyce suddenly suggested that we shop for the clothes to wear on the kayaking day and we even decided to help xiang choose her swimsuit.
-lol. some swimsuits were just plain ugly and we never failed to give our comments =p
-after walking for hours, we just could not bear it anymore and went to Coffee Bean.
-the atmosphere there was fantastic and we talked abt lame things which send us laughing madly again.
-took the wrong bus which took us on a big detour around bugis area and finally we reached the stjohn HQ.-_-
that was ytd and today we had ISP, and it was tiring and brain cells-killing for me. almost fell asleep during the first period but becos it was mr osgodby, i did not want to risk the chance of being yelled by him. haha, and i managed to sruvive. science was okay besides the moth incident. hehe..the moth flew in from nowhere and sent most of the gers screaming. lol. but still, i had alot of fun being "tatoo-ed" by our dear sinyee. ss was -_- cos it was a teacher whom we were not even familiar with and like what xiang said, she had attitude prob. not nice. then it was LUNCH but unfortunately, there were only 2 pathetic stalls opened and upon seeing the long queue, my appetite was gone and i just ate a packet of cookies. amaths and eng was ok also cos nothing interesting happened.
I FINALLY UNDERSTAND AREA UNDER GRAPH =)))